It’s never too late to make a change 

I’m bored of anorexia. I’m bored of waking up each morning and subconsciously running my fingers over my hip bones. I’m bored of planning every meal of the day and calculating every calorie. I’m bored of choosing foods based purely on their calorie content and I’m bored of eating these boring foods. I’m bored of…

Hiding in plain sight

Like an enemy lying in wait, the anorexic mindset exists among us. Perhaps not in its most extreme, brutal state, but in the comments and remarks, actions and decisions many of us make every single day. Choosing not to eat that slice of cake in a café, picking the lowest calorie salad for lunch, running…

A nation obsessed with starvation 

Every day, everywhere, we are surrounded by the idea of thin privilege. Society fiercely advocates the thin ideal, brandishing weight loss ads and fitness regimes that promise a life transformed once pounds have been shed. Studies are beginning to show that slimmer individuals are judged as more competent and successful that their overweight counterparts, whilst…

Anorexia: self-harm or self-protection?

Some people say anorexia is a form of self-harm, and I suppose in a way, that’s true. I starve myself because I don’t think I deserve to eat, because I don’t believe I am worthy of food. It is a way to punish myself, to berate myself for not being good enough or clever enough…

To the loved ones of an eating disorder sufferer…

We’re sorry. We can see how much we are hurting you; don’t for a second think that we can’t. We know that it is tearing you up inside, we know that it is terrifying and confusing and we know that we are destroying you. And we’re sorry. That sounds so feeble in relation to the…

Eating Disorders Awareness Week 2017: you are not alone 

There have been times during the last year when I have felt completely and utterly alone. I have felt like a freak, a malfunction, a weirdo. I watched my friends devour cheesy pizzas and sip sugary cocktails and I marvelled at their normalcy, their ability to simply eat and drink as they pleased without the…

Dove campaigns, and redefining beauty 

When it comes down to it, we are all just people. So why are we always labelling ourselves? Why do we brandish our identities with words like fat, skinny, lanky, chubby, plain or ugly? Dove’s beauty videos are major tearjerkers, but they carry a message that is more profound, more relevant and more important today…

Lies your eating disorder will tell you 

• You will be happy if you are thin. There are so many lies hidden within this one big lie, but the most important and dangerous fact is that your eating disorder will never think you are thin enough. You could be surviving in the most malnourished, emaciated, deathly state and your eating disorder will…

Why I can’t just eat

We all know the story of a painfully thin girl being hurled abuse at from a passing car, often being yelled at to ‘go eat a cheeseburger’. And even if this sentiment isn’t expressed in quite such a nasty way, most anorexia sufferers will experience this kind of misunderstanding (dare I say ignorance?) in some…

Making the decision to take some time off

First off, this title is a little inaccurate. I didn’t exactly choose to take a year out; rather, that decision was made for me. I had recently embarked on my year abroad in France. I was living in Paris, and I was doing an amazing internship. I was supposed to be living the dream, and…

The cruel consequences of #cleaneating

Nobody really wants to admit that they are influenced by the social media hashtags of #eatclean and #fitspo, or that they internalise ludicrous claims in the tabloids about the latest superfood or the recent discovery of yet another enemy to public health. But the truth is that this these fitness fads infiltrate every aspect of…